Tagged: pain and suffering
Is it time yet?
Lord, I long to be with you. Is it time yet? I long to be reunited with my family who are already in your house. Is it time yet? I long for a glorified new body to replace this body of weakness and pain. Is it time yet?...
On the Evening of a Bad Day
I know that no one ever promised life would be fair. I know there is no reason that this shouldn’t have happened to me and no reason why it did. I know that sometimes things just happen and we don’t know why. I also know that I’m fine in myself,...
From Denial to Acceptance?
Slowly but surely, cancer is chipping away at my dignity, my autonomy, my self-image. Last week I agreed to my oncologist’s suggestion of treating my apparent depression and anxiety disorders as a quality of life issue, and accepted my GP’s prescription of an SNRI. I know that objectively that was...
Pain is in the brain
Pain is much on my mind lately. As recently as last November I wrote a post (Pain) in which I talked about my reluctance to use narcotic pain relief. Recent readers of Telling Knots will know that I have since agreed to take the stuff in spite of my objections....
The humiliation of fatigue
One of the neighbors around our central courtyard made some remarks the other day that caused me to feel terribly helpless and humiliated. He mentioned how he had heard how active I used to be, how well I kept my house and garden, how much work I did for the...
The Humiliation of Fatigue
One of the neighbors around our central courtyard made some remarks the other day that caused me to feel terribly helpless and humiliated. He mentioned how he had heard how active I used to be, how well I kept my house and garden, how much work I did for the...
Despair and Hope
As voluble as our generations are when talking about our feelings, we didn’t invent that kind of emotional transparency. In fact, I sometimes think that earlier generations were more creative about it, particularly the poets. It’s pretty obvious to anyone who looks at my poetry posts, that Emily Dickinson is one of...
Chemo Brain
Chemo Brain. So many of us (maybe even most of us) have gone through it, and some of us – like me – never get rid of it. The words that used to be there but aren’t any more. The inability to give clear directions over a route you know...